A horrible Day

Well everything has been a little crazy lately.... I got in touch with my friend from elementary school..he's still back in Russia...it was kinda cute, in first and second grade we used to run around telling everyone we are in love and that we are gonna get married.... kinda like childhood love. And now that we starter talking it's been weird, he tells me that he remembers everything from that time, and he asked me that if he ever comes here if i would give him a chance and be with him...I mean i don't know may-be i was crazy but i got all exited about it...until today... I know he is kinda a popular guy in Moscow, especially with the fact that he knows the entire Russian music industry, i knew he has always been a player of the kind, but we were talking and he said that he is going over his friends house, and i was like let me guess over some girls house and he admitted that yes..and then he was like don't tell me your are getting jealous already, and i said no i don't get jealous, and that was the first time i ever lied to him, because i was jealous, and i felt horrible. I know fairy tales aren't real. People don't just end up with their childhood love, it's impossible....it's just so weird that i got hurt just cause he is with other girls.. i mean we aren't together or anything...Plus my dad has been in a horrible mood today so he has been yelling all day and basically being a pain in .... you know what, he even took away my cell!!! i mean come on!!!! I'm 18 already... Once in a while i just wish he would be stable, like one day he is nice the other he is a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I donno. thank god mom has been supportive of me lately, sshe really is trying to make me feel better, but i donno i still feel as crappy as i did before...